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from a distance i can see your pain,
why do you stand so far away?
i can tell that what you feel, 
its hard to say, shouldnt be that way
you dont know what its like to be with you...
and be left out,
why can't i ever see inside?
and see your pain,
and see your lies,
let me make it better,
thought we were in this together,
and let me make you stronger,
you're not alone now...

come to me,
run to me,
im all you need,
you dont have to run away,
ill be your shelter,
talk to me,
all you need,
is me,
i dont wanna be on the outside looking in...
so close but so far away,
outside looking in,
i want to fix you, 
but your out of my reach,
talk to me,
all you need,
is me

to see your hurt, is hurting me,
i want so bad, to see you smile,
but i dont know if i can watch,
you hurting while, i just stand by,
your so strong, you carry on,
with a heavy heart,
it tears me apart,
and let me make it better,
baby its me,
thought we were in this together
and let me make you stronger,

the seperation makes it hard,
i wish, you'd just let down your guard,
i dont want to be this far apart,
and let me make it better,
thought we were in this together,
and let me make you stronger,
your not alone,
your not alone...

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and without you...
these days seem so slow,
you don't update your lj no more,
so i guess, i dunno what's going on in your life,
so if it's not to much to ask...
how have you been?

 since xanga fucked me up, im too lazy to create a new one...
so haven't been writing alot...

facebook is so addicting >__<" 
i need to get a life...

SO I DIDN"T KNOW UNTIL NOW, HOW FUCKING MUCH STAR FUCKING BULLSHTIED ABOUT ME, THIS GURL IS FREAKING FUCKED UP IN TEH HEAD IN SO MANY FUCKING WAYS...hollshit

wat she SAID:

-cg PROPOSED TO ME (WTF i wouldnt even if she was the last person on earth)
-TINA, YESSi, NICOLE, JOY, ALL KNOW ABOUT THIS WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
-im not surprised if she told teh whole fucking fucked up world
-CG LOVED ME SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
oh god, someone throw a fucking knife at her face/head...
-cg wrote poems for me
-CG KISSED ME (fuck no)
-CG FOLDED HEARTS FOR ME (THEY WERE FOR JOY, long story)
-hmm letsseee i swear tehre was AT LEAST 20 things she bullshited about but im too pissed off to remember.

-AND THE whole fucking time, i felt sorry for her sad ass...taht she was hurt, but btiches are bitches, they dont learn

and also

she said:
-ILL NEVER LET U AND JOY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER (wtf)
-ill kill you
-ill hurt joy



she has no fucking idea wat pain is...
im gonna kill her, if not physicaly, then emotionally

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first im gonna take joy away from her, and if shes gonna get back with tina
ill tell tina everything
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and she likes joy, when joys completetly straight, and she doesnt get teh fucking HINT
fuckoff
she doesnt even realize how much joy hates her...its kinda sad..
but joys a really really nice gurl

so i feel like a bitch cuhz im basically doing wat shes done
but i cant take this shit anymore

she needs to get a fucking clue of how much of a bitch she is.
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SO YOU DIDINT PICK UP UR CELLLLLLLLLLLL
osuosuosu...;_____________;
lydia talks JUS like u on msn, im scared
and she still thinks ima guy =) im good at convincing her
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somehow these lyrics really got to me

(Can't stop thinking about you. Why can't I get over you.
When will you & I finally, fade away.)

Just when I'm feeling like I'm finally over us,
That's when it starts to rain.
No matter what feeling comes to me (it can never fades away)
And so I tell myself that I would never run and not be afraid to love.
Thats when you cross my mind (Never fade away)

And I know that we can never never never be in love.
And I know that there's a better person for me now.
And I'm trying trying everything so I can let it go (woah)
But all these things I'm feeling, never fade away.

Now I gotta do what's best for me.
Whatever we had could never be.
Somehow when things are missing, we'll never fade away.
Whatever will be is meant to be.
And you've given me nothing to believe.
Somehow the love that I gave you will never fade away.

(Can't stop thinking about you. Why can't I get over you.
When will you & I finally, fade away.)

It's better off to not try and think of you or even say your name.
What was the use of trying to change (never fade away)
Cause even i fool myself another day.
Soon as I fall asleep.
Thoughts of you would be in my dreams (never fade away)

And I know that we can never never never be in love.
And I know that there's a better person for me now.
And I'm trying trying everything so I can let it go (woah)
But all these things I'm feeling, never fade away.

Now I gotta do what's best for me.
Whatever we had could never be.
Somehow when things are missing, we'll never fade away.
Whatever will be is meant to be.
And you've give me nothing to believe.
Somehow the love that I gave you will never fade away.

Now I gotta face the fact that it's over now.
And I'm trying so hard to go on but I don't know how.
I feel like it's out of my hands, nothing I can do.
Maybe I'll never ever get over you.

Now I gotta do what's best for me.
Whatever we had could never be.
Somehow when things are missing, we'll never fade away.
Whatever will be is meant to be.
And you've give me nothing to believe.
Somehow the love that I gave you will never fade away.

= = =

since i cant sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep...
i willlllllll RANT ON HERE
idunno how to use the stupid tags
wat a retarded feature
my dadll be awake in an hour or so.............
so idontthink i should stay for long
but ugh..
okay
so
my rant
ihatemylife
aha almost typed ihateyou
anyways
my family
needs to..........LIKE DIE
my memories neeeeeeds to die
everything ihate..needs to die
but too bad no one ever litens to my neeeeeeeeeeeeeds
blah
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im tired
so i shud goto slepppppppppppp


























BUT THE COMPUER IS LIKE ASKING ME TO STAY
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhT______________T
imgoonna go insane
or crazy
just dont think
yea
eveyrthingll be fine
rite?